Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Dark, Light

First, I need to say how happy I am sitting in my backyard in the 75-degree weather, working on my capstone. Well, right now, I'm writing this blog post. Whatever.

Last night, I couldn't fall asleep for several hours. After 1am, when sleep isn't coming, all of my worries and problems become more than I can bare. My battle with anxiety definitely doesn't help. In those dark hours, I begin to doubt everything I know to be true in the light. I try to comfort myself by reading my favorite Bible passages, by praying for other people, and sometimes for myself. But in those hours, I can't escape whatever it is that weighs heavy on my chest. I can't escape the doubt. But morning never fails to bring the light and my fears and doubts are lifted. God is faithful.

Can anyone else relate?


  1. there may be pain in the night
    but joy comes in the morning.

    your post brought that to remembrance. CANNOT for the life of me remember where it is though :(. And I can relate. Even during church services at times I have to just put myself in prayer and fight against the spiritual warfare my mind is undergoing. Because it truly is a battle for our souls that is being fought in those moments...


  2. I definetly relate. I often feel the same and I have such a strong weight in my heart on nights like that. however, there is comfort that joy comes in the morning. I will have you iny my prayers... kindred spirit :)