dreams are infused with distinct feelings

I was just jolted awake from a terrible nightmare. One of the scariest I can remember experiencing. And I want to try to describe to you this bad dream before going back to sleep (and hopefully to better dreams)...

I was tired and driving at night on a highway in some rural part of the country. Then all of the sudden I realized two things; my headlights weren't working and the cars in both lanes in front of me were coming to an insanely hard stop and I didn't think there was anyway I could stop in time to avoid slamming into these cars. But somehow I did stop in time. But then for some reason, the cars in front of me started driving again, and so did I. FAST. And without my headlights. My heart started racing, as it should have been because I was driving 80 miles/hour WITHOUT HEADLIGHTS.

Then, my car shot right off of the edge of a cliff. Somehow I realized that A) there had been a bridge that used to be there and B) I was going to die in a few seconds when my car and I would fatefully meet the water below. I was free falling to my death. After about 2 seconds of sheer terror, I attempted to reel my emotions back in and come to a kind of peace. I was going to die and that was ok. But I wasn't actually ok with it. Then I died and woke up in the same instant. My heart is still recovering.

There you have it. The best way I know how to deal with these types of dreams is to record it, lift it up to my Lord in prayer, and ask Him to take my dreams captive.

I also have two songs stuck in my head that my brain is mashing up together. But I don't know what songs they are. Driving me crazy.

oh dreams...

I had very romantical dreams last night. Yes, romantical. It's not a real word, but dreams aren't real either, so it's ok. But boy, do they feel real sometimes. I woke up with SUCH disappointment this morning. Basically, I met the man of my...dreams. HA!

brain-washing and beyonce

Had a dream last night that I stumbled into a house full of people I knew who were brain washed by the house owner. She tried to brain wash me too but I didn't fall for it.

Also, this is great:

Do you ever start having a nightmare and then jerk yourself into consciousness? But you're not fully awake and you're afraid to fall back into sleep because you're afraid you'll just fall right back into the nightmare? Well one of those scenarios happened to me last night.

I have a semi-reoccurring nightmare that men have broken into my house and their mission is to kill me with their karate. And basically I get my butt kicked. It sounds so lame when I type it out, but it is downright terrifying when I'm in the middle of it.

I'm incredibly exhausted and I don't have the motivation or energy to work on my homework. My eyes sting and I'm still not over this cold and I just want to burrow into my bed and not come out until springtime.

just a few dreams...

I've been having lots of dreams the past few nights, but I can only remember bits and pieces. So here are a couple...

Last night: I had a dream or a series of dreams about people trying to break into my house at night. I remember realizing there were people outside, and then rushing to lock the back door and the front door. Then for some reason I had to put all my weight on the front door (even though it was locked). I called for my parents to help me, and told my dad to call the police, but he couldn't or wouldn't, I can't remember which. I don't know who the people trying to break in were, but I just remember being really scared about them getting in. I woke up catching my breath.

Another night: I was in the audience watching something I can't remember what it was. The people sitting behind me were being really rude so I told them to shut up, but using less kind words. Then they started kicking the back of my seat, so I whipped around to elbow them in the face (I know, so aggressive!), but ended up waking up mid-swing and elbowing the lamp by my bed instead. Luckily, I didn't break it.

dreams

Well I had a nightmare last week that I died in an explosive car accident. It was shocking and felt very real. I woke up gasping for air, shaken to my core. In the nightmare, I was driving somewhat carelessly and I swerved to avoid hitting a car, and then a truck carrying huge gas tanks swerved as not to hit me. One of the gas tanks came loose and was flying towards me. I thought to myself, "This can't be it. I can't believe I'm going to die like this."

Last night, I had a dream involving a friend of mine giving me a foot massage. Ew. I hate feet--touching them, them touching me, and people touching mine. I remember my feet were somewhat dirty from walking outside barefoot. I just feel weird about that dream because in it, I didn't mind at all that my feet were getting a massage.

What does it all mean? I don't know. But here's a great song:

woah!!

Well, folks, yesterday I had a dream that totally threw me for a loop.

It was the most emotionally charged dream I've had for as long as I can remember. It was full of bitterness and heartbreak. Let me tell you, I was more heartbroken in that dream than I have ever been in my life--awake OR asleep. Besides being incredibly emotional, it was a dream within a dream! And I was so convinced that when I woke up (in my dream) that I was ACTUALLY AWAKE. So intense. I blamed it on the piece of chipotle infused chocolate I had before going to bed. However, I ate another piece last night, hoping for another night of crazy of dreams, but alas, it did not work.

It's Friday and it's windy and chilly and I'm LOVING IT! My plans are to get a head-start on this week's reading. And maybe curl up with some tea and a couple gluten-free cookies and watch The Great Debaters as the wind swirls around my house. Cozy, yes?

dreams and things

Well, grampa is home again. Grandma is taking care of him as well as she can. He's doing a lot better than she is, though. She's kind of up and down. She's just not herself. I keep praying for her restoration.

So after seeing Inception (twice), I started a dream journal. For the past few years of my life, I feel like I haven't been remembering any of my dreams. So I decided to be intentional about it. The last two mornings I have successfully recorded whatever I remembered dreaming. Here is what I have so far:

7/29/10

-walk into a house,party, a guy from -edited for privacy haha- is there, alone, sketchy looking

kent,Kenny, playing game involving lowering your pants and sitting on the ground.

I realize my pants are falling off so I join in their game. Kent is so happy to see me—(he cries?)

I would just like to comment on this dream---it was not weird at all that we were playing the no pants game. it was really normal.

7/30/10

-teaching at a school

-had to take a wooden raft/boat to get to the gym

-one of my students said, “I could tell we were both different. I knew we would get along.”

*there was way way more to this dream, but these are specifics that I could recall.

Yesterday I saw a hitchhiker. Wearing a hippie-looking jacket. With long hair. In Wheaton, IL.

It was awesome.